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March 16, 2014 - The Second Sunday in Lent
John 3:1-17
1Now there was a Pharisee named Nicodemus, a leader of the Jews. 2He
came to Jesus by night and said to him, “Rabbi, we know that you are a teacher
who has come from God; for no one can do these signs that you do apart from the
presence of God.” 3Jesus answered him, “Very truly, I tell you, no
one can see the kingdom of God without being born from above.” 4Nicodemus
said to him, “How can anyone be born after having grown old? Can one enter a
second time into the mother’s womb and be born?” 5Jesus answered,
“Very truly, I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God without being born
of water and Spirit. 6What is born of the flesh is flesh, and what
is born of the Spirit is spirit. 7Do not be astonished that I said
to you, ‘You must be born from above.’ 8The wind blows where it
chooses, and you hear the sound of it, but you do not know where it comes from
or where it goes. So it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit.” 9Nicodemus
said to him, “How can these things be?” 10Jesus answered him, “Are
you a teacher of Israel, and yet you do not understand these things?
11“Very truly, I tell you, we speak of what we know and
testify to what we have seen; yet you do not receive our testimony. 12If
I have told you about earthly things and you do not believe, how can you
believe if I tell you about heavenly things? 13No one has ascended
into heaven except the one who descended from heaven, the Son of Man. 14And
just as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, so must the Son of Man
be lifted up, 15that whoever believes in him may have eternal life.
16“For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son,
so that everyone who believes in him may not perish but may have eternal life.
17“Indeed, God did not send the Son into the
world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through
him.”
The Landscape of Lent: Wind
What was the darkness made of,
What color was that night?
Was it clean,
Did it crunch underfoot,
And did cicadas chew its edges?
In what temper had the sun gone
down? Had day sagged off
Like a shop boy pulling down the
blinds? Or did it dance away in skirts and bangles, A bride leaving her
father's house?
O God, that night-Was it cold and
did it taste like fog? Did it wrap me in its arms
Or push me into a street of
eyeless houses?
It's gone, that night.
I remember only the voice.
A lamp is not the
sun. A dish of fire in the corner plays a little with the dark, rearranges the
shadows. It cannot make a day.
Shadows ate his elbows, sprawled
across his knees
And smudged away his face.
Fingers of lamplight
Stitched a crown around his head.
It came and went.
I heard what I could not see,
I saw with my ears,
And was not happy with it.
"Born again? How can this
be?" meant— and he knew it—"I do not want it so." An infant's
naked flesh did not appeal to me.
No more the windy sea.
Creation was, is, had been;
leave it alone.
Those who go down to the sea in
ships
are young,
the unestablished, the uncreated.
Let them.
Who are you?
Who are you to demand such
things, To drop me into the sea's womb And flay me with such a wind?
"Who are you?" crawled
up my spine and clamped its teeth around my neck.
Easy now to understand
Why I do not remember that night.
Later, I saw.
I saw the naked flesh soaked in
the blood of birth, under an unshadowed sun.
What wind there was— such wind I
had feared— was no more than a breath wheezed from between swollen lips.
Rabbi, my friend,
I will follow you out to sea.
I will walk with you
a thousand darkened streets.
I will walk farther than that.
Who are you?
I will not ask again.
I am afraid I know.
And further will night instruct me.
And morning.
This
poem, “Nicodemus”, by Miriam Pollard, speaks of that Jewish leader who thought
he knew it all until he met a Rabbi named Jesus. He came seeking answers, or more honestly
put, seeking Jesus’ validation of the answers he already had.
“Are you
who people say you are?” he asked bluntly.
Jesus dodged the trap of a question and instead spoke deeply, “No one
can see the kingdom of God without being born from above.”
“But
what does that mean? How can you be born
twice?” an irritated Nic responded. A
patient Jesus continued to answer with riddles, “No one can enter the kingdom
of God without being born of water and the Spirit. What is born of the flesh is flesh; what is
born of the Spirit is Spirit. The wind
blows where it chooses, you hear the sound of it, but you don’t know where it
goes. So it is with everyone who is born
of the Spirit.”
“How can
this be?” a frustrated Nic demands. Now
it’s Jesus’ turn to ask the questions: “Are you a teacher of Israel and yet
don’t understand these things??” Then
Jesus speaks about heavenly and earthly things, about his journey to bring
eternal life, that the world might be saved through him, because that was
always God’s plan.
We don’t
hear what Nic says in response. We don’t
see the carefully-crafted answers he has for God evaporate in the experience of
a moment with this strange sort of Rabbi Jesus.
Which is why I like the take of the poem I began with so much: it
imagines Nicodemus as utterly befuddled by the windy riddles of this Teacher. You see, though Nic was Jewish, these days we
might have called him Presbyterian.
I say
this because he like to think about
his faith, he wanted a faith that engaged his head as well as his heart, (well,
perhaps his head a little more). He
wanted to reason his way through the story of who Jesus was and why he
came. And instead of presenting him with
a thesis on the incarnation or a lecture on the Holy Spirit, Jesus preached
poetry. In other words, for this man so
obsessed with engaging his head, Jesus instead engaged his heart, a heart it
seems Nicodemus hardly trusted.
Some
things can’t be explained away, though we’ll always try. You can put John 3:16 on a bumper sticker and
recite it from memory every morning, but that sort of sacrificial love offered
through Jesus Christ can never really be explained, or fully understood.
You can
think about the Spirit as a holy intuition or instinct, but we can never tame
the wild blowing of that stirring Wind, or decide where it goes. We can do all the things we think we’re
supposed to do as Christians, and know all we think we’re meant to know, and
yet still we will find ourselves swept up in the wind of that Spirit in ways we
can’t really explain.
Some
things just have to be experienced.
You
don’t ask a child first tasting ice cream to describe its chemical composition,
you ask “How does it taste?”
You
don’t ask a blind person seeing a sunrise for the first time to methodically
recite what colors they can and cannot make out, you ask, “What do you see?”
You
don’t ask a teenager holding someone’s hand at the movies for the first time
the ordered way they interlaced their fingers, you ask, “How did it feel?”
You
don’t ask someone hearing Clair de Lune for the first time to recite each note
in perfect procession, you ask, “How did
it sound?”
And so
we don’t ask Jesus to fit into our already-full head of doctrine. He instead asks us, “But what do you believe, in your heart?” This isn’t hyper-emotional manipulation
(which we Presbyterians are particularly wary of, and rightly so).
This is
our faith moving beyond the page, beyond the head knowledge, beyond the
salvation formula to the unpredictable wilds of our hearts. This Lent, we are called, just as Nicodemus
was that day he got the answers he never wanted, to lay aside our agendas and
overstuffed ideas and let ourselves be swept up by God’s Spirit.
Who
knows where we will be blown to. Perhaps
the wind of the Spirit will blow us into the life of the man selling newspapers
in downtown Aberdeen who could really use a hot cup of coffee, or a cold glass
of sweet tea. Perhaps the wind of the
Spirit will blow us into an uncomfortable conversation with someone we need to
make peace with. Perhaps the wind of the
Spirit will blow us into more heart-felt prayer, or more regular worship, or
more space for silence in our overcrowded life.
We have
no control over where the Spirit will blow us, and this is both liberating and
terrifying. But we can be sure of one
thing: the Spirit who hovered over the chaotic waters of creation, who hovered
over Jesus at his baptism, who blew through the church at Pentecost, is always
on the move, always sweeping us up in that dance.
Sometimes,
it is not the time for carefully-crafted answers. Lent is one of those times. Sometimes, we just have to let go, to be
caught up in the mysterious wind of God’s Spirit until we are carried beyond
ourselves. And in these miraculous
moments of being caught up, we do not ask how we earned them or try to make
clear meaning of them. We simply
experience them, and embrace them, until we arrive somewhere we never intended
to be, with answers we never expected to hear.
Thanks
be to the God who creates and re-creates us over and over again, to the Son who
responds to our head-focused certainty with heart-stirring riddles and to the
Spirit who, uncontrollable as a wild wind, refuses to leave us as we are, amen.
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